I sit down to write something / anything and I go completely blank..every time.. Why is that..

I will write some old guffs that happened like a month ago..

One of my friend said that I HIDE BEHIND MY LAUGHS AND MY SMILE.. and that has really got me thinking .. and its so so true.. I really seem to do that.. well, my response/answer to everything seems to be "he he he" when I am with certain group of people.. or most of the time I have a permanent smile on my face like that laughing buddha... IS THIS SOME KINDA AUTOMATED RESPONSE/MECHANISM THAT I HAVE TO HIDE MY REAL FEELINGS.. hmm I really don't know....

Well, he also asked me to join some group of his which my other friends say is a cult.. so I guess, Its best that I don't listen to his psychobabble analysis of me..

Before he left, he said I "DOMINATE" people with my laughs and smile.. How does that work ?? Well, he also said the girl he fancied (she turned him down) is nice to everybody and that is how she dominates people..

At trafalgar square, Big Ben in the background...